I need a new plan. I am now in my third spectacular crash within the last six weeks. As soon as I start feeling better I start cooking, house cleaning and driving. And the inevitable happens. Why do I do this to myself? I guess I want to feel normal. I want to act normal. I want to have a clean kitchen to work in. I want good real food to eat. I want to make yogurt and bread from scratch. I want to drive myself to appointments. I want to be able to walk into the docs office under my own steam.
I spent last week driving myself around town. I went to the shrink, the chiropractor and the masseuse. I cooked yummy real food dinners and made myself omelets and sauteed kale for breakfast everyday. I picked my kid up from the bus stop. What was my downfall? I did the dishes. I was sick of the kitchen being a mess. On Friday I showered, dressed, made breakfast, went to a massage, did the dishes and picked up the kid. Wow!! I haven't done all that in one day in a dogs age. I got back from the bus stop and collapsed on the couch. I'm still there three days later. I've been using the walker to get around the house when I can even manage to get up. Why oh why?? I know better.
So I need a new plan. Instead of being driven by instinct, which apparently is out to get me, I need to come up with something more structured so I don't end up permanently stuck in bed. I also think I have to go over this game plan with hubby so that he understands what is going on and doesn't expect me to exceed my limits. Like someone said it is like having a car that only get $5 of gas per week. Once the gas is gone that's it for the week. I have to plan my trips better.
I think forced resting is going to have to be part of this. What I did back in September worked well: do something then lie down for at least 20 minutes. So, shower: lie down. Cook: lie down. Dress: lie down. Drive: lie down. Etc. No cheating. I might have to set a timer to limit my internet activities when I first get up in the morning. It is like a drug. I have this urge to go online first thing. It often compresses my schedule when I have to go to an appointment and the rest periods are the first to go. I need to not do this. Facebook will still be there in the evening when I can take my time going through things.
And back to the no sugars, no grains, no cheating part of the diet. Back to at least a Paleo diet plan. I think I'm going to have to enlist my doctor or my nutritionist for help to incorporate all of the vegetables for Dr. Wahls diet. I need to be able to eat cruciferous vegetables without the heartburn or Prilosec.
Forced rest periods
Day off between appointments/trips
Make doc/nutritionist apt to take care of stomach probs
Back on Paleo diet with as much veg as I can handle comfortably
Being able to cook breakfast and dinner each day
Make juice daily
Being able to make simple items such as yogurt and easy Paleo baked goods (baked goods reduces the urge to cheat on the diet)
9 cups of veg a day: 3 cruciferous, 3 mixed colors, 3 others/fruit
Being able to drive to local appointments
No more major crashes