I'm very happy to report I'm returning back to baseline. I made sure I had no appointments after vacation so I could rest. I'm sleeping in every morning and lying down in the afternoons.
I'm not totally back to my good level of functioning (I still can't read books) but I drove today. With the radio on! That is a first in over a year. Whenever I've driven this past year I've had to turn off the radio due to it being too much stimulus for my poor brain. I found it distracting and frazzled my nerves. Today it was sunny, I had the window rolled down and the tunes on. I felt normal. The most normal I've felt since last fall.
I love pretending that I'm not sick when these moments strike even though I know they are fleeting. I'll crash in a few minutes or an hour but in those few precious minutes I'm normal. I can make pretend I will get better. I can pretend I can shop, travel and have a life like a normal person. It is such a glorious feeling. Of course I had to lie down in the quiet and close my eyes when I got home but the trip home was wonderful and delicious and normal.
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